Tell him “I’m happy”
I always wonder why I’ve never said “I’m fine” when he asks “how are you? OR what happened?”
I always replied “Nothing…nothing happened to me or what can happen to me” And he always smiled at me ….
you know sometimes you just wish to feel the warmth of being loved and cared for once again, now I wish to relive those moments when he asks me how I’m doing? and I say, “I’m doing great papa, I’m happy.”
Because he always wants me to live happy, to stay happy and he did everything that he could do, to make me happy.
random day (6th or 7th grade may be):
Some random girl took my stuff from Papa and promised him to return that very next day, (papa never said no to any child, whether he knew them or not) but after 3–4 days I gave a reminder to him that I needed my stuff back just ask that girl to give me back.
He tried but I don’t know what happened, he just told me that he would buy me new ones, and I started crying that I didn’t need a new one I wanted my own old school stuff.
and there I saw him crying because I was crying… He went to that girl’s father with me and told him to give my stuff back, as he couldn’t bear to see his daughter cry.
I told my friends and at home too, that Papa could do anything for me, He didn’t want me to cry.
In a world where such acts of unconditional care are rare, it’s a father’s love that stands out for a girl.
This was not limited just to that time, He daily asked me how I was doing or when I was not feeling okay he always asked me what happened and I always said “Nothing, papa! what could happen to me.”
At that time I had no idea that so many things could happen to me.
Why didn’t I realize then how much those simple questions meant? Why I haven’t think of that? Why I haven’t think that someday I will crave for this affection, for this love, for this care and for these little questions?
Now I want someone to ask me how life treating me. what the world is doing to me? how I am? What happened to me? I swear I will tell them :
“Life hasn’t been the same since he left. This cruel world is treating me poorly. Some days I manage, but others, I just want to disappear. I still can’t pinpoint what exactly has happened to me, but something surely has.”
